Monday, September 27, 2010

Be Thou My vision

"Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all."

There are many days when I struggle with discontentment and having joy. I am always looking forward and am not content with where I am at. I am always longing for the next stage in my life (college, marriage, graduating), while ignoring the joys in the place where God has me. I have found, there are always things to complain or whine about if we are looking for them (which I do often). I like to think of myself as an optimist, a joyful person, but many days I am not. I forget the joy of the Lord's presence. I do not hold time with Him as the priority that it should be. Sure I make excuses, which I can always find. ( "I am too busy today, this week, etc." "Well right now I am not in a place to give God my best"" I am too tired"...and so on). The Lord is the only one who can give us joy in this depraved world. We are to be discontent in this world, but we are to find our contentment in Him. I fail to keep the Lord as first in my heart. I fail to remember that I am always to keep the Lord as first in my life. My relationship with him is where I should find joy.

"Be thou my vision" What a beautiful reminder to always keep the Lord as our first priority. When all else fails. Whatever my complaints, they fail in comparison to the hope and joy that is in the Lord.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

One Thing At a Time

I have a tendency towards an all or nothing attitude. Most of the time that has meant I saved a homework assignment until I could do it all at once (including big papers). This is a very dangerous thing to do. I have written very crummy papers because of it. I started to do better with doing bigger homework things a little at a time. 

However, now that I have much more responsibility, I am needing to remember this again. For instance, I probably cannot have the entire apartment cleaned and have all of my homework done. Something has to give sometimes. Meaning, maybe I have the apartment picked up, but wait until the weekend to clean it. This is hard for me sometimes, but I am learning.

I am learning about priorities. My professor tells us to make sure to think of our "big-rocks". The "big rocks" of our lives are the things that are most important to us. Than there are other things that need to fit in our lives after that. My marriage is the biggest rock in my life right now, and school, work and housework need to take a back seat sometimes. 

I am blessed to have Andrew with me. He is great at reminding me that I am not called to be "super-woman". He is patient with me, and is a constant reminder of God's grace and love to me. 

The Lord is faithful, marriage is a huge blessing, and very busy :)

Psalm 86:15 

  But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
       slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.